Big boobs problems

Most girls want to have big boobs. But I seriously think medium boobs are just perfect. I listed some annoying things that come with having big boobs. I also drew some illustrations. Enjoy. No pervy thought please.

• Most clothes are not designed for us. Like it’s so hard to find a shirt that fits perfectly  
  
• Baggy and loose shirt  will make us look pregnant and fat. When people with big boobs wear a baggy t-shirt it gives them a big stomach look from profile view even if they got a flat belly.
  
• Running or exercise sometimes painful for some people with bigger breast. And the big jiggle, I'm pretty sure people stare. All you need is an excellent sport bra.
• Feel conscious/slutty/awkward about it
  Like there are people commenting about your look. “Are they real or fake?”. And the worst thing is having people stare at it.
  
• Them boobs always get in the way. Just google busty girl problems by rampaige.
• Models have small to no boobs. Women always love fashion right? Okay, nuff said.

It's Ramadan :)

Now I'm fasting and still waiting for iftar. It's almost done though.
Things went perfectly and rather boring lately because on day since I don't go to school anymore I just have nothing to do. Today is really boring. I watched movie after sahoor then I doodled some things then I slept then I woke up and took a bath and went browsing on the internet and then I am waiting for the iftar.
Seriously totally boring. Beside all the prayers, I think I've got to do some activity. I really went sedentary this week. I just like laying on my bed all the time and not productive at all.
I haven't workout for like a week and I'm afraid I'll lose my strength and muscle mass and also gain fat. People think in Ramadan we will lose weight automatically, but boo.. when I break the fast I tend to go on the beast mode in eating food, the choice of the food also gone bad. I'm pretty sure there are a lot of people like me.
I think tonight I'm going to do some exercise after salat Taraweeh then I'll take a bath after it. I wish I don't feel lazy.

Holy shit I'm free for two months

Now since I'm going to be a university student and unfortunately I'm going to major in architecture I hope I will get enough time and energy to do my happy things.
The good news are I really love to draw and create things and this holiday span is like heaven. Also tomorrow I'm gonna visit my dad in Jakarta and stay with my family there for a week. I hope everything goes well.

This week I have fasted for today including this day. Ramadan month is coming up and I hope I'd be ready to fast for a month without complaining about the hunger and the thirst. What I'm afraid of is I might not be able to keep up with my exercise routine. I mean when my stomach is all empty how I'm a supposed to work out. I also tend to binge when I have to break the fast. Tough month, but I hope I'm gonna get the benefits both physically and mentally.

I made their hair --> Toca Boca Hair Salon 2

 hhh.. How I wish I have a somewhat long hair.. If I ever have chin length hair again I'm gonna be thankful. Okay now I know the trick: never trim my hair anymore or go to salon until my hair reach my shoulder. Even if it's so messy with the choppy and saggy cut that grows longer I'm just gonna pin it up. *promise to myself* I'm totally done with being mistaken as a boy. I can do it like when I was in junior high I let it grew I've done it before and now just be patient.

 Now since today I'm fasting I'll post some foods I eat when I'm health conscious
breakfast: oatmeal with water/ milk + bit cocoa powder + fruit

 lunch: spinach, broccoli, carrot, tofu, tuna, cauliflower

 

dinner: cherry tomato, chicken breast with onion, chickpeas, broccoli

But I am still me, I cannot eat totally clean in a day, sometimes I eat milk chocolate, that kind bag of chip, or maybe I eat mcdonalds when I don't give a shit.

Okay, now I'm literally hungry.Bye.

Tomorrow is Friday

OMG, tomorrow is Friday.. so it's Hannibal time.
Lol. My life is totally taken by this tv series. I mean like seriously.. everyday I cannot wait until this holy day of the week. Okay.. I'll stop fannibal-ing, I just want to say that season 2 has been confirmed a long time ago now. I mean like omg, but I have to wait for a year they say.. for the next season.. a year? A week seems like torture for me. But whatever, okay I'll stop.. #so happy

So.. everyday basically is Sunday for me now.. I got no school or job so my daily activities are like hanging out with my mom, watching movies, eat, sleep, exercise, laying on the bed, going through random tumblrs and sites, yeah sounds like heaven? Sounds boring noww.. :(

Couple days ago I watched this movie Stoker. It's a 2013 movie. Go look at imdb.
Overall, I love it. I thought it's gonna turn out as a vampire kind movie but it was better. I really love Uncle Charlie. I watched Leap Year before with Matthew Goode in it and I didn't like it. Now I realise he's kinda cute and extremely reminds me of Jim Parson. But he's like the handsome charming version. What I really like is Mia Wasikowska and him do not even get to bed or even have a kiss. Everything just like what I want, you know this kind of movie, the makers let the audience imagine the 'thing' but totally nothing happen. The total disappointment is the shower scene of India when she masturbates, I mean, come on... why every film needs a little nudity. It's really a turn off for me when I see India gets turned on while remembering her uncle kills a boy. Wtf, couldn't this scene just made into an implicit way?
But I admit that Ms Wasikowska was great and really pretty as India. She's really doing a good job when she shoots the sheriff. And the credit goes from top to bottom.. that's just something different.

G'night.

Was it a happy day

Okay, I know it's my first post after that growing out my hair crap I talked about. And guess what. I just got the brand new super short haircut about 10 days ago :) Well, whatevs.
Anyway, I'm accepted in the university I chose. I couldn't be happier. I'm still happy because I was hesitant in enrolling there. I just got the news like an hour ago. I feel so relieved.
Thank you, God. I love you.

It means my duty of studying for the big plan B test is cancelled and I could do some things during my relax days. Some fun things :)
Recently I am engaged to this tv series Hannibal. OMG, this show just totally me. At first I didn't really understand the show, but now I'm in love.. Everyday I open actualhannibal to see funny things and also hannibalhouseofconfession to see others thought about this show and I also checked madsturbating to see Mads Mikkelsen face updates. I just love Mads as Hannibal totally perfect, his version of this elegant cannibal is just like my vision of hotness. Plus he's so suave and a dane and has no eyebrows.

Okay, I'm gonna stop talking about him. Hannibal tv series is full of blood and mutilation of bodies, murder, crazy psycopaths, drama, and it is scary sometimes. But it also full of yummy fine foods and bromance. The eff? I don't know.. it almost like Sherlock I think. So sad the rating of this show is so fucked up. I hope more people watch this show. I need to watch more season please.

It was a happy day
The only bad things are I'm on my period, haven't exercised for almost a week, fucked up bowel movement, can't eat normal food because I'm gonna throw up later (maybe it's because something i ate?) I'm really concerned about my health now :(
I also emotionally unstable lately,
But most of all.. I feel relieved for making my aim happened.

Grow it out

I remember the first time I got my short haircut, it was during my first holiday while i was in junior high. I used to have shoulder length hair before. My mother always complained about how messy my hair was, so when I was in Jakarta I accompanied my cousin to get a haircut. The only thing I remember was my aunt asked the hairdresser to make my head looks no disaster anymore. So she cut it. I didn't even mind at the time.

When I was back to school my friends told me that I look cool and boyish, somehow I became tomboy and the hell I don't know why. Then the next year it grew and I got almost-shoulder-length hair, but I felt like shit and chopped it all off again. I acted totally boyish during my junior high years. I wore boy clothes like t-shirts and men short pants and kept my hair short all the time. And I think I was trying to look like a boy during that time. Hell no I was no lesbian, by the way.

When I entered high school I thought the puberty phase slowly passed and I wanted to be just normal no boyish and girly just simple girl. But you know what, it's hard to do that. I still sometimes wanted to be boyish again then I had my hair cut again and again. Just recently I felt more feminine then I didn't know what's on my head but a month ago I just got the shorties haircut I've ever gotten. And just now I got bored with my look.

On the other hand, I love to have short pixie hair because my head feels lighter and it hardly feels messy. I also feel taller. And thinking about the advantage of having short hair almost make me want to keep it short?
But no, I'll grow it out like my plan, even if I have to deal with disgusting look of my messy hair during the first months. I want to stop people from calling me 'dude'.

It's my new year revolution beside the END OF HIGH SCHOOL. NO I'M FREAKING OUT BECAUSE  I STILL HAVE TO NAIL ALL THE SUBJECTS FOR THE BIG FINAL EXAM AND HOW I HAVE TO STRUGGLE TO BE ACCEPTED IN THE UNIVERSITY OF MY CHOICE.

Pray to Allah.