It's raining

Hello.
I've been scrolling through my old online album and I realised that I used to be a good artist. At least I can draw and create some fine doodles. But now.. I think I have shifted into a left-brain person. I feel sad. I used to love drawing, painting, and creating.. I used to be so creative and now I just feel so ordinary. I feel like I want to cry. Because all my talent seems to have sunk..

I am going to start drawing again in my spare time. I'll try to find some inspiration online. I will try to stop watching and be an audience. I want to make something that I feel proud of. Just for my own pleasure..

If only I have the time.

I nedd some comfort in food

It's a repost from my old one just to remind me to stay calm:
Sometimes you are very confident about your exam and then you fail it.
You just feel depressed all the way after you know your grades. Actually all you need to do is lower your expectation. Then, when you find out that your grade is better than what you have predicted you will be happy and be glad for the results. You are gonna think "Hey, I'm better than what I thought!" and you will never have a problem with that bad grade if you think it can be worse.
For example, you already have a test and you are very sure you will get at least an A- and the next day you got C+ when your friends averagely got B. For heaven's sake you wanna cry but it's no use crying over spilled milk. But you didn't even spill the milk. "I study hard for this but look at what I've got" you think.
Compare it with this situation, you study hard but you convince yourself that your result would be between F or D, then when you got C+ you are gonna be happy because it's higher than your expectation. That's really work, man. Just think you are worse than you actually are.

Haha. I was very wise right. So it's the second week of midterm  and I should have been studying but sadly I can't focus on the  powerpoints just cuzzz...
Well so my eating habit is also the worse this week because of this midterm thingy. You know I got this stress eating routine everytime I got bored and have no time to exercise. When I am studying, I just fuckin sit on my chair and read.. how unhealthy is that. Actually I really despise sedentary life because it's making me feel lethargic and fat. I hope I could join some activity clubs and recruit my friends to boost the mood. But the problem is I'm short of money lately.

I think I'm about to get my period because I feel hot all the time. Gosh.. all I want is just to watch movie, hangout, eat eat eat and eat. You know SS super sambal.. I think I'm addicted to their foods because I could go there 3 times a week and its super cheap to eat there and I never get bored. Just wow.
And just a couple days ago me and ma fellas went to Tempo Gelato and their ice creams were super yummy... food.. foood. I love food

 God, I want this so bad. Oats with chocolate and fruits is like my favorite thing in the morning

 

 Pasta topped with meatballs in heart melting sauce.. Just can't resist it.

Isn't this a frittata? Wow love it gonna eat it.. Food is life

all images are from weheartit.com

Greetings people. Guys, it has been more than a year since my last post, and after accidentally stumbled upon my professor's old blog, I have an urge to write something here. So just so you can catch up, now I'm no longer studying that thing, and my life has changed. Sigh. Actually I don't now what I want from this life. I just want to be happy and not feeling stressed out. And here I am.

I just recently went through my second semester and now I am completely free for almost 2 months. I should put myself into some activities. Maybe some that good for the btains. I don't know guys it seems that these days I watched to much movies, sleep, spent hours in front of my laptop browsing, sleep, and then eat. Maybe it's because I'm fasting and feel kind of jaded throughout the day. Ok. I am gonna write about my current obsession.. imaginary world. Now the season three of Hannibal is still on and it's gonna be the last season they say. How sad. It's like my favorite tv series so far beside Sherlock. And I freakin cant wait to see Sherlock Special. Here I embed the first clip from youtube:

   

Back to Hannibal. BEWARE SPOILERS. To be honest I kind of disappointed by episode 1-4 of season 3 because it had too much slow mo close up scene which is good and really artistic actually but it was just too much in those episodes. It was really boring and I actually had to skip some parts. Then episode 5 came. The ending of Contorno was like the beginning of the season. It was full of action between Jack Crawford and Hannibal which makes me sad because Hannibal was wounded. And then the next episode Dolce was even better. I never thought that Hannibal was going to lobotomize Will instead of Paul Kendler. Like why Hannibal hates Will so much that he loves to hurt him. In this scene of dinner setting, Jack watches while he cannot moves because Hannibal drugged him. Dolce has this kaleidoscopic lesbian sex scene between Alana and Margo. When I first saw that I was like wtf is this weird thing. And the best part is this episode is face-paced and makes me want to see more. In the last minutes of Dolce, the scene of dinner setting changed and Mason suddenly appears with Hannibal and Will being hung upside down. 

Now I cant wait to see the rest of season three episodes!! But... it also makes me sad that this seems to be the last season of Hannibal despite all the petitions that scream  #savehannibal. Well I think I have to go. Bye people.